Four things are important right now. The funny thing is that all of them are studies. My hairs growing out. I’m collapsing into myself slowly. I’m separating myself from you. You are what slows me down. You are not a single person. You are a whole. Don’t get me wrong.¬†I love you.¬†I am a very compassionate person, but in order to understand you as thoroughly as possible,¬†I need to study you, so that’s what I’m doing.

My top priority is my physics studies.¬†I love reading.¬†I just got back from half price books.¬†I saw two books that really sparked my attention. Relativity by Albert Einstein. I’ve been wanting to read it for quite some time now. I’d really like to get some more insight on what was going on in that head of his that amazes me so much. Also, there was a book called Faster than the Speed of Light, which is basically a book of considerations against relativity. So, that’s even more insight. What¬†I love about Einstein was that the first thing in the book that he talks about is that we should know which¬†ideas to believe and which ideas¬†to consider true.

The next priority is school. Not just my classes, but just the school environment in general and the work‚Ķ the teachers, the students, the activities, etc.¬†I love being involved with the school.¬†I enjoy all of my classes. The homework really annoys me sometimes, but I’m starting to get over it. The play is going really smoothly. I’ve been doing a great job and¬†I like that¬†I can make a difference. You guys should all go to see the odd couple! It’s going to be great! I’m on props team and I’m doing sound!¬†I also love building friendships with the teachers. All of them are such good people in so many ways and¬†I have a lot to learn from them.

The next two priorities are kind of combined. One is my thoughts on the world. The world being people and the connections between them. And the second being what I’m writing about it all. Writing on a topic of this generality is tough. I’m starting to organize my ideas, though. It’s going to be baby steps and I’m guessing it will be years before¬†I finish, so I’m going to stop talking about it to people. That’s another thing that I’m starting to get over. Letting everything out. Telling people what I’m thinking. There’s a time and place for that and¬†I need to learn it. That kind of leads me to my other priority (or more of a goal) right now which sums about all of it up.

All of these are very connected. I’m making great progress. College is going to accelerate me towards my initiation into the life that¬†I want to live.¬†I want to learn about people and understand them. Not through classes. It’s been said by many geniuses¬†that classes will dull your mind. This statement is incomplete. Classes will dull your mind, if and only if you soak in the information as fact and nothing more. You need to take it in and be creative with the ideas. You need to be able to think beyond what you’re learning and apply what you’re learning so that you can make a living.¬†I want my knowledge of the physicalities of the universe to unify with my knowledge of people.

Before¬†I get married, before¬†I have kids, before I’m ready to settle down and get a real world job,¬†I want to understand why¬†I should do all of these things.¬†I truly believe¬†I will be there one day. My idea of God is slowly soaking in. My idea of the universe is slowly sinking in. And my idea of people is slowly sinking in. Once these all connect,¬†I will know what needs to be done. That’s where your life is.¬†I want to live it to its fullest through all of this.¬†I like to hope everyone around me does, as well. But no one likes to think nearly as much as¬†I do.

So… I’m left alone. In a head of thick hair. Where no one really knows what’s going on inside of all of it. They all have an idea from different perspectives. But nobody understands the networking between everything.

On a lighter note, yesterday, I read about techniques for recording acoustic guitars. I decided to practice it in Hey Ya. I rerecorded it. I left the old one up so that you guys can see the difference.

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