Tonight, I’ve pondered a lot about the subject of religion. I am more sure a few things and questioning a few things. First of all, I will say that I’m not questioning God’s existence or questioning whether or not¬†Jesus was here for the reasons he said he was. I believe that there is a God or a higher power who told us what we can and cannot do. There is proof all over that we didn’t follow his guide lines. We sinned. We are not perfect people. I believe that Jesus came and took our sin away to save us and bring us into heaven, closer to God, where true happiness will be found.

As a person, you are given a freewill and a life that you can make or break. You are told what to do and what not to do and why you should or should not do these things. All of us except for one have not followed those things. If we do follow those things, it is said that we are given true happiness in a perfect relationship with God and then, afterwards, eternal life without the stresses of this world and if we are sinners we must accept that Jesus came to take away that judgement of us: a free ticket into heaven and eternal life in happiness.

We can all say that we’ve sinned in one way or another and that we’ve put shame to ourselves in front of God, that is if he is there and watching, which I believe he is. If we don’t make one of those two decisions I talked about, then we go to hell. I’ve been wondering about hell lately. Hell is a horrible place from what it sounds like and no one wants to go there, but I don’t believe that just because you didn’t believe that Jesus came to wash away your sin, you should be put to eternal punishment or at least the¬†picture of this punishment¬†that is painted by the Bible. Tonight, I’m starting to think that hell may be just a ceise of existence. No forgiveness or eternal life of happiness. You simply do not matter or¬†exist in any way forever after judgement. Your soul is de-activated.

Maybe that is a horrible punishment for some, but I still have yet to see how bad it is. Eternal life of happiness sounds pretty tight to me, but I’m not asking for it. I love my life and I would be completely down to not existing after I die. The only thing is… I do believe he’s out there and I do believe he sent someone to blind him of our imperfections when we meet him in heaven simply by believing that he sent that someone. Life should reveal how¬†much better¬†I will have it later and how much I should want it.

I don’t look at this world as a nasty place for me, but that’s from my perspective. God sees how ugly we are and tries to tell us how perfect it is up there… but I don’t understand perfection. I love with all my heart that I have been given the possiblities to make this amazing life that I plan on having. Having that super-duper close relationship to God doesn’t seem like I’d be much happier. I thank him every day for giving this to me. Maybe this is the relationship…

This gift of being healthy for 17 years,¬†living the American dream, being able to go to college to get a degree in a subject I feel passionate about; to completely master my passion, being able to pursue a career based on¬†my passion in the free market, the chance to fall in love with a woman that will make me feel better than I ever have before, and¬†the chance¬†to have kids that will change my perspective on everything and make me feel a dumbfounding amount of pride is absolutely incredible. I love him for giving it all¬†to me and I ask for no more… yet, the gifts keep on coming. I get to go to heaven and live in complete happiness forever for simply believing that he gave me all this and a chance to be with him.

God, you are a truely incredible God and I’ll see you up there. We’ll chill hard and drink soda and stuff. Until then, I’ll try to make you proud.

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